So. Ryanair Flight No. FR1633 to East Midlands Airport. As we board, Vivaldi's 'Four Seasons' is squeezed into our ears yet again like the balm it's supposed to be. But it's not balm. It's embalming. It's aural embalming fluid. My eyes sting with all the sherbet-yellow plastic while my blood's replaced, surrepticiously.
Am I dead yet? Is this Heaven? This is what Heaven - if it exists - must be like: as packed as an orgy but deeply, deeply unsexy because you're only allowed to touch elbows. Never lips or genitals. Only elbows. And if there is music in Heaven - and surely there is - then it must similarly be poured into your ears, and constantly, like the singing of the Sirens. But while this music might, on Earth, for five seconds, be considered ecstatic and dramatic, in Heaven it doesn't stop. It can't. Otherwise there'd be... what? Disappointment? So it has to go on and on and on, with no variation. Pleasure in Heaven has to be at a constant pitch. Timeless. But the Vivaldi here has stopped, thankfully. Which must mean that I'm still alive. Which must mean that this Ryanair flight is not Heaven, after all.
Odysseus plugged the ears of his crew with beeswax while he stood tied to the mast with naked eardrums - all so he could experience the ecstasy of the singing of the Sirens. What they don't tell you is that his crew were so pissed off with him by this point that they rowed really, really slowly. They weren't daft. They knew that after five seconds that glorious, ecstatic Sirensound would get boring, then irritating, then horrific. It would become like bloody Vivaldi.
All of which explains why Heaven cannot exist.
And if that goes, God's got to go too, of course. Expelled from this sherbet-yellow flight from Limoges, flying over northern France. I imagine Him as a fine spray, expelled from the undercarriage. Tomorrow, early of a morning, a French farmer will cross his yard carrying a red and brown rag of a dead chicken in one hand, and a bunch of rusty carrots in the other. He will stop in his tracks and smell the air, and smell God, just briefly, like spores, or horse-breath, in the tang of the morning.